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A Pumpkin-seed-sized Mustard Seed

‘This ain’t no intro, this the entree
Hit that intro with Kanye and sound like André’
“All We Got” – Chance The Rapper

It’s been another year and I find myself standing on the edge. The edge of thirty. 3-0….wow.

I’ve come to enjoy writing these yearly reflections, because it makes for an amazing read a year later. Every year it seems I’m on the verge of a something new, Trenay is achieving another goal, and the progress I’ve made has been unbelievable. This year is a no different, and yet, it is.

My something new this time is no longer being able to start my age with “twenty-“, and finding myself….overjoyed. I joked with Trenay recently about how I really do feel like I’m aging like fine wine. Literally every aspect of my life has only gotten better. I’m a better husband, better son, better brother, better friend, better business owner, just….better.

‘Found warmth in a Black queen for when I get cold
Like Nat King,[…]’
“Blessings (Reprise)” – Chance The Rapper

With each passing year, I grow more and more in awe of my wife. She’s literally the most ambitious, determined, goal-oriented, achieving person that I’ve ever met in my life. In a month, I get to watch her walk across the stage as she formally receives her MBA in Healthcare Management. She took a 2-year program and completed it in 1-year all while working full-time in leadership roles and still putting up with her husband. If I wasn’t watching it happen day in, and day out, I wouldn’t understand how she does it.

‘My dream girl’s behind me, feel like I’m James Early
The type of worship make Jesus come back a day early
With the faith of a pumpkin-seed-sized mustard seed
Hear, for I will speak noble things as entrusted me’
“How Great” – Chance The Rapper

To see a snapshot of how this year has been for HawkDG, the month of June encapsulates that perfectly. This has been a record breaking year for us as far as new content, new clients, people helped, as well as revenue. The craziest thing about this year has easily been the multiple events that were added to the calendar because of someone I met, taught, or helped back in 2013.

Looking forward to the new year, while acknowledging the seeds that have been planted this year, has me more hopeful than I’ve ever been. The faith of a pumpkin-seed-sized mustard seed indeed. I have complete trust that God is walking with me as I walk this path, and can’t wait for Him to reveal more as I step into this new chapter.

‘She can say in her voice, in her way that she love me
With her eyes, with her smile, with her belt, with her hands, with her money
I am the thesis of her prayers.’
“Sunday Candy” – Chance The Rapper

With all the great things that have come with this year, there’s also the bittersweet passing of my Grandma Opal. Bitter because she was a pillar of our family nucleus. She was a woman of few words, but when she spoke, you knew to listen to every word. We just buried her last Saturday, and I’m still processing it in my own way, but knowing that she’s with the Lord, and touched so many people, makes it easier to digest. Last weekend was filled with learning things about her that I didn’t know, meeting family that I had never met, and reconnecting with loved ones. Not hearing her calling to wish me happy birthday will surely be tough, but I always knew she loved me, and for that, I am forever grateful.

Hi 30, nice to meet you. Dare I say, I’ve been eagerly anticipating your arrival?

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